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Katie. 19. Montanan. She likes boys who make her laugh and anyone who can make her feel safe. She likes coffee and cigarettes and kittens and the ocean.
Here's the story, it's not in order and it gets confusing, but if you listen close, you might hear the voices in her head.
Thismakesmewantdrugs.
Before anyone starts, yes, I’m a pretty avid recreational drug user. I’ve done a lot of the ones you hear about and am looking forward to doing more. I DON’T advise getting into it if you’re not in a mentally stable state of mind, I DON’T advise getting into them if you think they’ll make you cooler. If you’re looking for a new way to look at the world, if you’re looking for the most intense bonding experience of your life, and you know the right people, then maybe go for it. But think long and hard about it, and make sure you won’t regret it. Don’t do anything stupid.
The last time I tripped on acid, I tripped harder than I ever had before. Maybe that’s because I went through a new dealer, maybe I was just more open to the experience, but about four hours into an eight hour trip when my father called. LSD has a habit, with me, of hitting me in waves. I can go twenty minutes and think “oh, this is the highest I’m gonna get, I’m totally functional right now”, and then BOOM, it hits me again.
My father called me during one of the lulls on this night. He’s the kind of guy who would worry if he didn’t talk to me RIGHT THEN when he called, so I took a deep breath, grabbed my phone, and went outside to talk to my dad while tripping balls. I’m sure I sounded terrified, because he asked what was wrong only a few lines into our conversation, and I told him I was walking across campus and it was cold out, which seemed believable enough to me. We chatted, and everything was fine, then I looked up at a clear night sky and watched it explode into fireworks. The sky sparkled where there were no stars. I made it through the conversation and burst out laughing at the absurdity of the moment, and the beauty of the moment, and when I see a night sky, it hasn’t looked the same since.

Thismakesmewantdrugs.

Before anyone starts, yes, I’m a pretty avid recreational drug user. I’ve done a lot of the ones you hear about and am looking forward to doing more. I DON’T advise getting into it if you’re not in a mentally stable state of mind, I DON’T advise getting into them if you think they’ll make you cooler. If you’re looking for a new way to look at the world, if you’re looking for the most intense bonding experience of your life, and you know the right people, then maybe go for it. But think long and hard about it, and make sure you won’t regret it. Don’t do anything stupid.

The last time I tripped on acid, I tripped harder than I ever had before. Maybe that’s because I went through a new dealer, maybe I was just more open to the experience, but about four hours into an eight hour trip when my father called. LSD has a habit, with me, of hitting me in waves. I can go twenty minutes and think “oh, this is the highest I’m gonna get, I’m totally functional right now”, and then BOOM, it hits me again.

My father called me during one of the lulls on this night. He’s the kind of guy who would worry if he didn’t talk to me RIGHT THEN when he called, so I took a deep breath, grabbed my phone, and went outside to talk to my dad while tripping balls. I’m sure I sounded terrified, because he asked what was wrong only a few lines into our conversation, and I told him I was walking across campus and it was cold out, which seemed believable enough to me. We chatted, and everything was fine, then I looked up at a clear night sky and watched it explode into fireworks. The sky sparkled where there were no stars. I made it through the conversation and burst out laughing at the absurdity of the moment, and the beauty of the moment, and when I see a night sky, it hasn’t looked the same since.

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